Oh… where to begin? The fear that I struggle with the most… Being accepted and liked. I equate this to the giant’s head. Why? That is where the strongest muscles are, the mind and the tongue. If the giant wants to take me down, all he has to do is even hint that I am not accepted or liked, and I go into a 100 mile an hour nosedive. All it takes is a look, a tone of voice, an unexpected response from someone. Down I go into feelings of worthlessness, disliked, being unwanted, or a throw-away.
I’m not sure where this fear even came from. I have ideas, but why re-hash the past. I know that we all want to be accepted and liked, but it is so ingrained in me that my automatic actions/reactions are based around it. Truthfully, I feel imprisoned by it. I don’t want to be this way. It is time to break-free.
This is one that is going to take picking out several stones to find out which one works the best. If you remember, David spent a lot of time out with the sheep. He had many days, months, and years to learn which type of stone would work best. Well, we’ve learned to pick from the water. It is time to dive in and select a few stones to find the one to put in my pouch.
“The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.” Jeremiah 31:3
“The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
“Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
“Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners–of whom I am the worst.” 1 Timothy 1:15
I have to say that, so far, the scripture that speaks to my heart the most is Zephaniah 3:17. What a wonderful picture of God… Him rejoicing over me with singing. It seems like I only picture God sitting on His throne appearing very distant. He’s not, though. He is watching me… Loving me… Rejoicing over ME with SINGING no less!
That is not a scripture that I know by heart. It is one that I am committed to memorizing, but until I do, I will use an old trick that I have done on many occasions. I will write the scripture on a piece of paper, and then I carry it around with me in my pocket. To some, that may sound a little loony, but it is what works for me.
By the way… I need to give a shout out for a fellow believer giving me those possible stones to throw. I was drawing a blank, and he stepped up and helped me pick them out. That is what we, brothers and sisters in Christ, are supposed to do. So, thanks brother!