“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13
This morning, while I was getting ready for work, the scripture shown above came to my mind. This is my Stone #2. It comes after a few days pondering my fears and how they affected my life. It is a scripture that I wish I would have lived by throughout the years.
There are many things that I passed by or didn’t do/finish because I was afraid. I was afraid that I would fail or that people wouldn’t approve of me. I passed by moving to Albuquerque (Dad didn’t approve). I passed by finishing college (I will just fail). I passed by applying for promotions (my bosses don’t like me anyway). I passed by starting my own business (I don’t know what I’m doing – why try. I’ll just fail and where will I get the money, how will I…). I passed by joining a team to compete in sports in school (the other kids don’t like me anyway, besides I will not be good enough). I passed by auditioning for plays (I don’t memorize very well and they won’t select me anyway). I think you get my point. There was so much that I could have done, but I let fear stop me.
This fear was very quiet. Very cunning. I didn’t even realize what was happening until it was a long time after. I almost feel regret now. I say almost, because of Stone #3.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
I know that time of my life was not wasted. It would be easy to think that, and let my emotions go there. That would be the giant taunting me. He’s not allowed to do that anymore.
So, I now have two more stones in my bag.
Stone #1: “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:1 This I will use when my past sins creep across my mind and tries to bring me down.
Stone #2: When I am faced with my future and choices that I need or want to make, and I feel afraid, I can yell back at the giant “I CAN do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13 Emphasis is mine.
Stone #3: When the giant tries to beat me down with my past, I can pull out this stone, put it in my sling and whack him in the forehead with “And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him [and I do], who have been called according to his purpose [and I have].” Romans 8:28 Emphasis is mine.
I’m at a point right now where I’m looking at things and I am doing what I want regardless of the fear. One thing is that I entered the Rachel Carson Endurance Challenge. It is a 35 mile hike. I am a little fearful that I will not finish it, but you know what? “I CAN do all things through Him who strengthens me.” I’m working out. I’m training. That is all I can do to prepare. For the rest, I need to rely on the one who will give me everything I need that day to accomplish that goal.
I’m not over my fears. I have another decision to make right now that I am a little fearful of making, but I need to pray about it and see where God wants me.
All that said, have you found your stones yet? If so, please share them in the comments section.